Thursday, September 23, 2010

A Bad Day

Hi folks, having the day from hell.  Usually I don't come on here to discuss personal issues--other then to explain why I will be away for a short time.  But today has been one of the days that I sure need to get off my chest.  Bad day at work--we all have that; this day seemed to last 2x as long as normal.  Came home feeling rushed to take care of all of the things I needed to take care of -- picked up my daughter on the way home and she discovered that our dog was dead.  She was hysterically crying.  No one would come pick him up so my house guest and I carried him to the SCPA.  We had to take him around back where the Euthenize animals and the sound of screaming dogs was...stomach turning.

Then I was very upset with my houseguest.  He's been staying with me for several months...I'm not very good with guests, but he's family.  He knows that there is one thing and one thing only that I must do every single day.  And that is to write.  I'm a compulsive writer. It's not work, it's not pleasure, it's how I keep my sanity.  It's almost a running joke--I don't want to bother you when you're writing...because you might go off.

So why did I come home and my computer table that usually holds fan, pencils, paper, jewelry had my laptop on it and nothing else?  Oh wait, the old broken laptop that my house guest uses was sitting on top of mine, plugged into the stero which had incidentally been plugged into my laptop.  All of the items that had been on the table were strewn across the floor like a hurricane had come through!

The fan was still running and on the floor!  My jewelry was in the corner.  These things were not just on the floor but it was like they had been slammed onto the floor.  But my laptop was sitting on the table all perfect.  No stereo aux chord plugged into it, nor my power chord plugged into it the way I had left it when I left for work that morning.  Me and Mokkelke had been talking before I went to work so I had been on it.  I went to plug it in and guess what, can't plug it in because it had been shattered inside of the input socket.

I asked my daughter first if she had dropped it.  She didn't do it (she is on her own brand new laptop before she goes to school--which is incidentally half an hour after I leave in the morning).  Asked my house guest (who is jobless and home all day), "Oh I never touch your computer.  I don't know."  And if you don't touch my computer and have no knowledge of how it shattered, why is it that the stereo is mysteriously plugged into the laptop you use?  "Oh, well I plugged that in, but I promise I don't know why your computer won't plug in..."

So, I'm pretty pissed at him.  I know what I know, and he knows what he knows.  He'll be leaving this weekend.  I twisted the chord and managed to get it plugged in and I'm getting a charge.  But...again, my computer is not my recreational device, it's my source of sanity.  Had the laptop broken...I would have broken.

Pretty bad, huh?  And I still haven't mourned my dog and all I can do is just hug my daughter and tell her it's okay and wait until tonight when I can cry when I'm in bed.

23 comments:

  1. So sorry your day is going so badly. Hope it gets better soon.

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  2. errrr.............thats a lot of bad things together, well eveything will be okey, i hope
    srry for ur dog.

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  3. Thank you, it helps just getting it off my chest and I really need my Hello Beautiful Email...

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  4. Wow! Sorry to hear that your day was bad. Dog and the Computer? I don't know. If your dog wasn't sick before today and your computer was fine before today, and House Guest was there alone, I think that I would be giving him the side eye about both. I'm just saying....

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  5. Damn, that's so, well ...
    can't offer much as a big hug from overseas. having a bad day at work is already crappy, but then coming home finding your beloved pet has passed away and on top of that a load of lies to cover up bad behavior. (i have a big dog, he likes to chew on things, i can set him loose on the "house guest", does he really think you are that gullible?)

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  6. Our dog had run of about six mos ago and was gone for days. We were a nervous wreck. When he returned he wouldn't eat. We took him to the vet. He had an infection on his gum and the vet thought he may have tried to chew his way of of something. Vet said that for a dog almost 12 years old he was in excellent condition.

    He ran off a week ago, slipped out of the gate. My houseguest found him a couple hours later and brought him home. The dog wasn't himself after that. But he'd only been gone a couple hours so I didn't put two and two together at first. Perhaps he got hit by a car? My daughter said that he had a little blood on his gums when she checked his mouth. He hadn't been eating well over the last 2 days and we switched him to soft dog food and he ate that. He wouldn't get up and come to us but yesterday he began following us around again and he ate his dry dog food enthusiastically.

    He seemed better. I don't think my nephew did anything to him since he was crazy about him, had grown up with him. My nephew is a good kid, but I can be scary. Fuck with my computer and I can be scary as hell. I would say that, more then intentional sneakiness is what happened with the computer. Still...once you lie to me I don't trust you again.

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  7. the cover up bad behavior was more intended for him not owning up to the computer issue. the thing doesn't unplug itself, nor tosses your stuff around :(

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  8. Pep, I'm so sorry about your bad day especially your dog. I hope things improve tomorrow.

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  9. Losing a pet is heartbreaking...
    You have every reason to be upset with the events from today. That is too much stress for one day.
    Take care of yourself and get some quiet time to relax if you can.

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  10. Check your e-mail, beautiful.

    JG

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  11. It's your damn house, so do what you have to do to preserve your sanity sis, cause I been there.

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  12. Hey Pep,

    My condolences about your dog. And at least now you'll have your house back to yourself-- that I completely understand. Sometimes house guests that are family are just like bills, you don't want them but you have to put up with them.

    -392OhMyGoodness

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  13. Heya Pep. I am so sorry to hear about your dog. Take all the time you need to grieve, relax and unwind once your houseguest leaves. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs. :) Alex.

    PS: I can be pretty rabid about my laptop and the way I keep it so I feel your pain, anger and frustration!! Remember to breathe babe.

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  14. I feel and know your pain. I hope your day gets better and I am sorry that your dog died. I will keep you in my prayers...

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  15. This really hit a cord with me Pep, I just lost my dog earlier this week too, I'm still really upset about it all. Things will get better, we have to remember that.


    -K-

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  16. Pep im sorry to hear about your dog. Personally i have lost a pet myself so i know what your family is going through. Some people dont realize losing a pet is like losing a family member. I will pray that your family makes it through this.
    I think he messed with the computer and he should own up to it. Even if he just had the other laptop didnt he notice the room? If he did why didnt he straighten up? See things like that make you not want to leave people in your house alone. Nobody treats your things like you do.My laptop is very important to me also. I have even named it Pinky because its a pink Dell. Its so funny now that people ask about pinky also when talking to me.

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  17. Sorry you had a rough day yesterday. I had one to, but it happens to everybody. And, tell your baby girl that her dog is in a nice place (heaven)...

    P.S. check out this video of a father defending his daughter who has CP

    http://www.cnn.com/video/?/video/crime/2010/09/22/am.intv.bus.rant.dad.cnn

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  18. Pepperpace, sorry to read about your dog. I am sure that your daughter must have been devastated as well as yourself. I hope things were better today. Take care.

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  19. @Anonymous that posted September 24, 2010 @ 11.09 AM
    I heard about the dad that went on the bus to confront his daughters bullies and I don't think he did anything a lot of people would not have done themselves. I actually saw the video of the rant and heard why he went off and I think that at the time his reaction was completely normal... yes he could have waited until the right time to complain to the school or even the bus company but at that particular time the father reacted as any real father would when it comes down his children and he thus said so in the many interviews he had. That fact that he is being charged with 2nd degree misdemeanor is ridiculous-- in fact the fact that he got arrested was even worse... that has to be one of the most unjustifiable reasons to be arrested ever. I don't know whats going to come of his case but I do hope his daughter is able to go to and from school un- harassed from now on.

    -392OhMyGoodness

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  20. Pep

    I hate when it rains and storms at the same time. I'm really sorry to hear about the family pet dying. I'm also sorry to hear that your family guest doesn't have the decency to admit fault. I don't understand how someone can be so careless with what keeps you sane. After reading this, I'm even more grateful for the stories that you allow us to read. You'll be in my thoughts.

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  21. Thank you guys for listening to me rant and I do feel alot better. Also I watched that CNN video about the Florida father with the bullied child. That is what a parent does for a child that is attacked. I consider it being attacked, not just bullied. Of course the repeated use of the word 'killing' wasn't good for his case. But that is what we feel at that time. I feel for the little girl that will have to go to school and be even more the center of attention. Can you imagine being a child that is so stressed that they must be hospitalized?
    That is truly sad.

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  22. So sorry your day was shite. I seriously hope you are able to have a relaxing weekend. Losing a pet is so hard. They become like our family.

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  23. Hi Pep, sorry to hear your dog died. That's horrible. I hope you find the time soon to grieve.And your laptop..... :(

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